I have been thinking a lot about change recently. Or perhaps I should say I have been experiencing a lot of change. Over the last 5 months I had been finding myself feeling anxious and fearful and I couldn’t work out why. Everything felt like it was on top of me and I couldn’t think clearly enough to know what to do to feel better.
A breakthrough came when a friend reminded me of something that a visiting speaker at our church had said to us a few years earlier. The emotions that I was feeling are characteristic of someone in the middle of significant change. This was like a lightbulb moment. Looking back it is obvious to see the big changes that had taken place in my life, from stepping up to be the senior leader at my church to adopting Little Legs, significant change had been the order of the day over the last few years.
Interestingly the emotions that I was feeling were typical of someone who is approaching a significant point of change, the point when you either decide to turn back to what you have always known or push on into something new.
I think someone once said “context is everything” and while I don’t know if that is always true it was true for me in this situation. Understanding that the anxiety and fear that I was feeling was actually me approaching a moment of opportunity to move forward was illuminating.
It doesn’t however make it easy, change can be incredibly hard, no wonder we so often turn back to stay where we have always been. But I am learning, slowly, to keep moving forward making small steps through significant change to somewhere new.
Strength! Courage! Don’t be timid; don’t get discouraged. God, your God, is with you every step you take. – Joshua 1