Birth, grief and Mother’s day.

Just over nine years ago I was in hospital, heavily pregnant and deep in grief. Baby Six number three (Little Bud) was almost here, my liver function was erratic and my Mum had died just three and a half short months earlier. My head was all over the place, my body was struggling and I was desperate not to lose this baby as well as my Mum. In January just gone, our not so little bundle of energy and mischief turned nine. Little Bud is a testimony to my Mum: feisty yet caring, passionate yet full […]

About me

I’ve been starting (and not quite finishing) lots of blog posts lately. That’s partly to do with my headspace just now, partly to do with a lack of discpline in writing and partly to do with our current state of inbetweenness… We’re playing around with the blog at the moment and trying to decide which direction we need to be taking it in over the coming months. That doesn’t help in knowing what to write about! So I thought I’d tell you a bit about me! My little family is my world. I’d go anywhere […]

Christmas guilt (a bit of a rant)

“Mummy, will Santa bring me any Christmas presents? Cos I havent been very kind to my sisters today.” Last week we took our big girls to see the new Star Wars movie, The Last Jedi. Little Legs went to spend the morning with my sister and our two foster nephews at my sister’s house. They had a fun time and watched Arthur Christmas (the naughty and nice list trigger) and had cinema style snacks 😃 The big girls and I went to pick up Little Legs in the early afternoon and we’d talked about keeping […]

“Mum, what am I getting for Christmas?” A guest post.

Today’s guest post is written by an awesome Momma Bear friend of ours… Here’s Terrie’s build up to Christmas…   Last Tuesday my boy went back to school after Half-Term, when I picked him up he was visibly tense and had already gotten into a fight with his sister about who was sitting in the middle seat in the car (even though it was her turn, and he knew it.) I was expecting it to be honest, the first day back is always tough, especially when it’s the Autumn Term. After a minute or two […]

The Big Man

It’s that time of year again. I tend to spend November intermittently grumpy to be honest. No, I’m not ready for Christmas. No, I dont want to listen to Christmas music yet. No, I havent wrapped any presents…I honestly haven’t bought any! I cant think that far ahead. I often get cards and wrapping paper in the January sales but that’s as far as it goes. My Dad’s birthday is the middle of December. When my sister and I were kids, nothing Christmassy happened in our house until two days after his birthday. Which meant […]

Think Toddler

As an Occupational Therapist (in my pre-home ed, pre-adoption former life), my pre-registration training included a module on Child Development, which included lectures and some study time around the developmental stages of children. Once I qualified, I quickly settled in Paediatrics as my area of interest/knowledge/growing expertise. During my twelve years as a Paeds OT, I attended a number of excellent courses focussed both on child development norms and the variations we would often see amongst the children on our caseloads. These courses often focussed on physical, emotional, social, psychosocial, linguistic, cognitive and sensory development. […]

The view from here

It has been a while. Not because I, we, have nothing to say. More because there’s too much to say. Too much inside my head that I’m mulling over, dreaming about, stressing about, excited about, or processing. Much has changed and is changing for us. For the first time in almost twenty years together, neither of us are involved in church leadership of any kind. So far it has progressively felt right but bewildering, stressful, tiring, good, relaxing and still right. We are enjoying focussing on us, our family, our dreams for what’s next. Sundays […]

This is personal.

I’ve been brewing this post for a looooong while. Sitting on it until I felt I knew more clearly what I wanted to write about. This is personal. And it is political. And it is current. We are living in the middle of the consequences of austerity. And we are hanging on to the remains of what have always (in my lifetime) been pretty excellent healthcare experiences. Standing in A&E with my twelve year old on a trolley two weeks ago brought much into sharp focus. The relief of being able to access a free […]

We’re plodding along ;-)

My blogging habits have become somewhat sporadic over the last few months. I’ve got a few blogs in the pipeline, but not ones that seem to be coming together easily to be honest. Our desktop computer died a few months back, so although I can write drafts on my phone, I can only post to the blog when Mr Six doesn’t need the laptop for work stuff. But it’s also because we have changes afoot in our lives and it hasn’t felt like the right time to write about them until now. I’m not good […]

We’re doing it!

Little Legs came home aged three and a half. We’ve just recently passed the two year mark of her coming home. At the time she came home, her brilliant foster carers had been contemplating taking away her dummy, but had changed their minds once we were matched. During Introductions we had chatted with her foster Mummy about it and agreed that she probably needed it now more than ever. Over the last two years Little Legs has revealed herself to be a very sucky little girl – meaning that like many children who experienced early […]